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I think everyone who works and enjoys (sometimes) retail wears some of the same masks. Now, as a Black man the one I struggle with most often is not being a stereotype. Some of that is me saying to the outside world "not all Black men are what you see in the news or movies" and some of that is me saying to my community "there is more to being Black than what you see in the news or movies". I have used this mask (sometimes unknowingly, sometimes unwittingly) since I was a kid. Why? Well, I am fortunate enough to have been born into a true multi-generational middle class (sometimes upper middle class) family and to me that means education, world experience and dreaming are allowed and fostered. I am a 3rd generation college graduate (my grandfathers' grandfathers were slaves - one in Forsythe, GA; the other in Rutherford Cty, TN). I don't think I need to explain how extremely rare that is in any part of the African-American experience. Hell, it's rare in t...

I've mentioned before that I struggle with huge lack of motivation and a large dose of procrastination. Last week was a bad week and started trolling the internet to find some possible insight and maybe, just maybe, some help. I found several sites and the first one, this one , ( Steve Pavlina 's Personal Development for Smart People) looks quite promising. The second paragraph lays it out pretty succinctly: ...realize and accept that you don't have to do anything you don't want to do. Even though there may be serious consequences, you are always free to choose. Wish me luck and if you've got any tips, I'll take em. Technorati Tags: procrastination , personal growth

The folks over at Grist pointed me to this article at The Nation . It hits home and it might help me figure out why I do what I do. It hits home b/c I do some of the things she talks about but I quite often ask myself why I do these things. I buy the organic food and I often wonder is this doing anything. I know I am helping a small farmer when I buy food through my CSA but other than that, what difference does the rest of it make? I question myself alot. I question why I do what I do and why I don't do what I think I should (some are things that I tell myself I really want to do). It's a mind game. Most of it revolves around my lack of ability to commit. I have trouble committing to myself, to involvement and most anything else you can think of. Honestly, I am surprised I had the guts to ask Tara to marry me. I've been in this funk for a week plus revolving, as usual, around these issues. I can't seem to make myself do anything. Technorati Tags: social responsibili...